原来这是真正的自己

还以为我们的分手，我可以很坦然地接受，但是看来并不是那样的。

其实你做的一切一切，对我来说还是有一定的影响力。

也许对你来说，我已经不算是什么了吧。

我为什么还要那么的在乎你对我的看法？不是已经分手了吗?

我不了解为什么你对其他人总是对我好, 面对我就摆出一幅, 像是我得罪你的样子.

说真的, 我好难受.

尤其是你那句：“要哭你给我上车哭。” 真的。。。。。。

那天, 在KTV听了好多好多伤心的歌，眼泪不受控制的留下来。总觉得那些歌词像是在写着自己。

我很讨厌自己这些烂心情!! 做人潇洒一点不就好了吗!! 为什么自己却那么的婆婆妈妈！！我这个烂人! 要把自己搞得那么的辛苦吗？真得很讨厌自己！

Chinese New Year 2009 (11)

15th day of CNY (Chor Sap Mm 初十五, last day of CNY)

This day day is Chap Goh Mei ahh... Its also Chinese's Valentine day~
I didn't go throw mandrain orange in the river today, but I have followed my brother to his Etiqa's Yee Sang dinner at Melacca.

The dinner is not bad la, just that I not really know the people around me, exept for Kok Leong, Pei Wen, and Jun Hwa. But what I can say is the performance is quite nice looo! Is traditional dance, but it is different from what we usually see. They are really professional dancer!! Salute them! Even my brother says the performance is nice! (My brother seldom says that) ^_^

In the end of the dinner, I got a pen under the chair. Haha, creative ya?? stick present under the chair! ^^

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Yo, this is what had happened to me during the 2009 CNY! Hope you all enjoy it!

P/s: I very enjoy my CNY this year, full of activities, Happiness, bonding with friends and families! ;)

Chinese New Year 2009 (10)

13th day of CNY (Chor Sap Sam 初十三)

Hoho, yesterday just back from genting, and this day, we going out again! Its 5 of us (me, Ying, Charlotte, Ah Lu, Yunyun) Sg. Wang time! Too bad ah Ping have to work on that day laa >.<

We have visited Niko's shop on that day, and I have bought a singlet from her shop!! Frenz, remember go bong chan my friends ohh!! (her shop at the 6th floor, interested please ask me ahh! ^^) And then I have bought a black dress and a long T too, its quite cheap (usually I dun buy expensive things) xp.

~ Ying and Ah Lu ~

We have our lunch at Gasoline. I have order a set of Gasoline Chicken Chop, Yunyun, ying and charlotte order fried rice, while ah Lu order side dishes~ Haha, I believe after that day, They have fallen in love with the salad over there! Next time go sure order banyak-banyak loo! xp

Soh Poh~~~ xD

Happy moment is always pass fast, hope to meet with you guys soon!!!! o(n_n)o

Chinese New Year 2009 (9)

11th and 12th day of CNY (Chor Sap Yat and Chor Sap Yee 初十一，初十二)

Genting day!

Me, Ying, Yun, Charlotte, Su Ping and Ah Lu went to genting for both of the day! ^^

It is really very happy moment because they are so funny, its my gang! And yet, it is also very hard to get 6 of us together. Well, this is really a good bonding time for us!

~ Took when we are in the cable car ~

~ Nice? Is the bakery shop when we are on the way to First World Hotel ~~ This is what I bought, forget what its name, got mushroom and cheese ~~ We are waiting the number to check in loo, "Hi Charlotte!" xp ~~ Su Ping's pose of the year ;p~ ~ YunYun make up loo ~
~ Wakaka, 4 of us in the room, I acting stupid face @@ ~~ Lunch Time!! Charlotte: "Yummy! xp" ~~ Haha, I like this photo xD ~~ Randomly take ~~ 5 of us eating sweet potato, its really sweet le! ~~ Our dinner at Pizza Hut ~~ * Mushroom Soup!* ~~ The only roller coaster in First World Hotel ~~ Q-ing up for roller coaster loo ~~ Marry-go-around ~~ My sleepy look at 12.00 mid night ~~ We have our breakfast at Marry Brown, don't ever go there anymore ~

~ Photo shooting in the cable car when we are going back ~

~ My Fav. movie! Took it at the cable car station xp ~

~ Going Back loo ~

The memory will always be remembered in my mind, I will remember this day, 5th and 6th of March! Remember the time we have in Hotel, I snore when I sleep, eat mee cup in the hotel, have dinner at Pizza Hut, Our mid night movie, eating sweet potato, photo shooting time, time in the cable car and of cause the EXPENSIVE YET SMALL chicken and bun in MARRY BROWN! hahahahaha!! I love you all! Muaks! Buddy4ever ya! ;)

~ 6 of us - Buddy4ever ~

Chinese New Year 2009 (8)

9th day of CNY (Chor Gao 初九）

Haizzz, people still in CNY mood la, Me?? Have to go back to college for Music Appreciation Examination! >.< It is SOOOO HARD for me to study when I'm still in the Exam mood! No mood to read at all, keep thinking of CNY only! But, luckily there is still something manage to stay inside my brain larr... >.< But end up the exam is quite ok, hopefully I can score for it! God Bless me please! ;D

And finally on that night, me and kok leong have officially break up... Just don't feel like delaying it for too long...

I called him for that night. I was so calm when I talk in the phone. For me, I think we should break up because both of us can't manage this relation well. And this make us feel disapointed to each other. For him, he choose to break up because he think he is more prefer to be single.

The whole environment is quite harmonie since we break up in a peaceful way. I am glad that we still able to be the bestie for each other. I think this ends in a good way, for me and for him.

Am I sad? Yes, I am. But it is not that sad as I expect I will be. 1 year is not a short period for me, and we have go through so many things together... I know it will be quite hard to draw him out from my heart, but just let it be naturally lar...

In this relation, or should say in every relation, there is no who is right and who is wrong. So I didn't blame him ahh. Even though we had broke up, but he is still a good man to me... And yet, I understand that it is not neccesary to couple with the person even though you love him/her. I think we are able to communicate better if we are friends.

Just want to tell you, thanks for been in my life before, and thanks for the memory you given to me. I really appreciate of what we have done and go through together.

Chinese New Year 2009 (7)

8th day of CNY (Chor Ba 初八）
This day is a bai nian day for me and my secondary school's friends!

Actually nothing special ahh, especially guys arr! Don't be so shy laa, talk more even though we are girls! Actually it is very sienz if you guys always be like that.

~Danny's house phone, looks like the one sell in Pet Society. xp~

~ Station berikut, San's house, see, all like dying xp~

~ Xen ~

~ Focus on Seng Guan~


~ Only he is eating actually, looks so guai xu. xp ~

~ Danny sudah x boleh tahan, nice sleeping style ya! ;p ~

~ Follow with ckit's pose ~

~ See his leg ahh ~

~ Fishy at Yteng's house, sang sang mang mang loo!! ~

The bai nian for me, Hui Boon and Siow San end up at my house. My mum have prepared Yee Sang for us to Lou Sang~ Atleast there is some good time with my friends at this station! ^_^

After that, me, Boon and San meet a "friend" at Sunway Pyramid. We have our lunch at Mc. D, and guess what?! We watched RED CLIFF II, which is my second time of watching this movie. Haha, again? But I think it is worth for me to watch the second time, I LOVE IT SO MUCH!!!!! Haha. Super fans ah! xD

~ I was pressing so hard for the chili sauce =.=" ~

~ Me and Hboon's meal, yummy. xp ~

~ Hboon eating fries loo ~

~ 3 of us, San, Hboon and Me ~

Chinese New Year 2009 (6)

Fifth day and sixth day of CNY (Chor Mm 初五 Chor lok 初六)


I worked at Melody for both of the day. Because I really need $$. >.<

However, this is an opportunity for me to meet with my friends too! ;)

~ Me and Ying's dinner, Marmit chicken rice. Yummy! ;P ~

And I did something at Chor Sei. Ying and me took some picture to promote Melody! Hiak hiak! ;D

~ Sporting bag, available in other colours too. ;) ~

~ Sling bag ~

~ Colourful and stylish belt is available! ~

~ Purse for girls! Nice right? ;D ~

~ Stylish sun glasses, more design is available! ~

~ Blue of Purple? xp ~

~ Very long skirt! Available in black, purple too ^.^ ~

~ Melody's biggest paper bag ~

By Cmei and Cying ;)

It is really a memorable day for me! miss ya my friends! muaks!

这不属于商业用途哦！xp