Wednesday, December 22, 2010

State Cadet Camp 2010 (SCC'10)

I was struggling before I going to state camp this year. Seriously I feel really weird. I am already 20 years old, but state camp for me, its something for people that is around the age of 13 to 17.. And some more it has been 3 years I stop going to state camp... But, I know that I will regret if I still not going for this time... By the age of 21, I will lose the chance of getting my GP (Grand Prior) which I start aiming since I was form 3......

Camp has finish, my feelings towards this camp, is quite different compared to 3 years ago. I don't feel any nervous, or excitement, maybe I was having too much worries of the arrangement of transportation and also area performance which we hasn't well prepare yet. Other than that, I start feelings like a big sister to the members, not only my divisional, but for the whole area and even to all of the campers. There I see the different responsibilities I am having again compared to 2 years back.

Throughout the camp, I am able to expose myself freely, having fun or even Syok Sendiri, talk freely to anyone, even though I don't really know who they are... Haha, but the feelings is really good, like there is no boundaries between people. When people look at me, they smile, so do I. I feel really warm with this kind of situation.

Here comes to my group. I'm in group 16, Little Mermaid. This Group consist of 14 members including me, the leader, Sheng Yao, the assistant leader, Jie Hui, Seng Hou, Chia Yee, Jia Yee, Min, Ah Qian, Ah Chiew, Peng Chung, Jia Yuan, Kar Keong, Ah Kim, and Izzat. Its quite sad actually when some of my group members refuse to join some of the activities, because I think those activities will really helps them and make them learn something. For me, joining this kind of camp, we should always enjoy ourselves and participate in all activities. I hope you guys will still continue your journey, achieve GP and also get to learn more about leadership teamwork and etc... Last but not least for u guys, well done, we got the MOST OUTSTANDING GROUP!! ^^ And good job for my assistant leader as well, for taking over when I am not around, I see the leadership in you, hopefully you will become someone different in the future. (:

Seaport is incharge of the area performance during the camp fire this time. We did a sketch. At first, I am quite worry for them, as in they still looks blur in the rehearsal, still have a lot of doubt... But after practicing, they are acting better and better. Besides that, what I am impress is, the whole area members was actually contributing their parts in the performance. Where Jong and Katherine helps a lot in making up the costume and actions for Wai Loon who act as a "Ah Kua". And other division members come out with a really *OM* area cheer! Madam Che and Haris are the one coordinate the whole things. We receive a lot of good response throughout the performance. Even though out performance is quite short as compare to other areas, but we manage to bring the atmosphere so up high! GOOD JOB everyone! Last but not least again, We WON first place!! YEAH!!! Its all of the effort of KSTU members!!! Cheers*!

Good times during this camp is, our gossiping session with Haris, Mdm Che, Jong, Soo Theng and Katherine. HAHA! It is the most entertaining part laaR~~ And it makes our bond closer and closer. Appreciate it! ^^

After I come back from camp, I know that what I have been worry for before the camp, is... Yea, I think too much. I really learn a lot of other things during the camp. Out of sudden, I realize that, St John has actually taught me a lot a lot. Since I join in year of 2003, when I was form 1...

All I want to say is, Thank You, St. John. (:

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Something Meaningful and Encourage for me.

告诉我,我有什么好?
女生不像女生,讲话大大声。身材没人好,生活很糟糕,怎会有人要?(烦不烦啊?)=="
Yesterday at 10:21pm · · ·
    • Mina 米娜 不要挖苦自己啦 上天創造了我們都會有一技之長...
      加油加油
      Yesterday at 10:23pm · · 1 person
    • Koo Siong Ann just be yourself and this is the best thing of you!
      Yesterday at 10:23pm · · 1 person
    • Jess Liow 你很像女生,讲话大声是有自信,身材也很好,生活比你遭的人多的是..
      结论:你很好
      Yesterday at 10:25pm · · 2 people
    • Ser Yee Tan mei, like wat u told me tis morning.. juz think of those good things, put down those negative one... den d whole world will only have good things.. ^^
      Yesterday at 10:28pm · · 1 person
    • Ginger Lychee 上帝塑造每个人的那一刻,你已经是最特别最好的那一个了:)so,dun worry be happy,gal~~~:D
      Yesterday at 10:28pm · · 2 people
    • CharMaine Wong Chai Huey v love u no matter wat u r :) ♥
      Yesterday at 10:33pm · · 1 person
    • Xi Inn Don't step urself like that. everyone is special in their own way and one day you will find a guy who know how to appreciate and love the way you are (:
      22 hours ago · · 1 person
    • Cheong Kok Loon 你在念诗啊??哈哈
      21 hours ago ·
    • Ashley Chen LeeMei my dearest ng choon mei, everyone is special in their own way. dont focus so much on the outside. you are beautiful just the way you are and i can see so much great qualities in you. you are a great friend and a great leader. you are able to bring laughters and happiness to the people around you. and most importantly, always remember that you are the one and only NG CHOON MEI in this world that is exactly like the way you are. ♥♥
      21 hours ago · · 1 person
    • Yunn Yun Darling...wassup ar u??no one is perfect d....bt u are perfect 4 me..n 4 evì1 tat hu appreciate u much.....if u r nt?den hu i am??dont think negative dear....
      19 hours ago · · 2 people
    • Hb Khor
      wat i wanna said, all ur fren oredi said..
      anyway, u r Good, cuz u r who u r..
      at least u r not fake in front of everyone. u noe u speak loud. but u wont act lik a little girl in front of others. so ja ja..
      tat's the good n best thing bout u. not fake! ^.^
      4 hours ago · · 1 person
    • Casey Leong seriously choon mei? you're like one of the more AWESOME people i know wei!
      3 hours ago · · 1 person
    • Ng Choon Mei
      OMG! I seriously LOVE ALL OF U! Exept for Kok Loon~~ xP
      Act... This has just come in my mind and I just wrote it out, doesn't means much... Sorry for making u guys worry of me~ But, What u guys said is truly appreciated and a encouragement f...See More
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Thursday, September 30, 2010

新的学期又来临啦!

是的,无可避免的行学期又来临了~~

还没收拾好心情的我,又要开始上课了~

这个学期的科目。。听起来也还蛮令人担心的~

心中盼望的,就天灵灵地灵灵,让我平安顺利地读过去吧!

明天就是成绩出炉的日子了!

希望所有的科目都 PASS!!!

神啊~保佑我吧~~

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

全面

学习着如何把事情看得全面点。

学习把自己站在中立的立场。



人,是有极限的。

他们不可能了解所有各个方面事情。

然而,他们容易把自己所看到的,信以为真。

而那没有被看到的呢?



有很多事情,往往不是我们想象中的那样。

对你好的,不一定是好人,对你坏的,也不一定是坏人。



好人,当你知道他对你好的背后目的,他还会是好人吗?

坏人,当你知道他对你坏的原因后,他真的是百分之百的坏人吗?

所有事情的背后,会有一个也许不为人知的原因。

别人所想的,未必是你所想的。

你所想的,未必是别人的用意。

别人的出至于一番好意,未必是你想要的,但是,他真的只是出至于一番好意。



苦口婆心。

往往我们也只体会到苦口的不好,因为他逆耳,因为人也只想听好话。

而婆心,是时常不被瞩目的,往往人们都看不到那逆耳的,其实是钟言。



我不说出口,不代表我不在乎。

我没有行动,不代表我没有放在心上,有时是力不从心。

每个人,有自己的极限,有自己能做,与不能做的地方,也有自己一贯的处世方式。

也只能说,事实没有绝对。



但是,每一个人,都会有感受,这是无可否认的。

Sunday, September 5, 2010

我变脆弱了

以前的我,还没受过伤害的我,天不怕地不怕。

经历了长一点的人生,渐渐的被伤害过,伤心过,再也不那么的坚强了。



有时候,你所见到的,未必是事实。



一直以来我都会把友情放在重要的一位。

那种,“原来不这样”的感觉。。。 就是当我以为,他是我的好朋友,原来他不实,得哪一种感觉。。。 真的不是很好受,所以我就干脆告诉自己,别那么的容易以为他是。。。

如果深奥的友谊,换来严重的伤害,我会宁愿我不要那么的接近你,不作为你要好的朋友。

因为那种伤,我接受不了,也不知道如何去面对。



因此,我逐渐的,逐渐的远离了别人。

变得不知如何跟别人交流,接触。



我的保护层,越来越厚了。。。。 不喜欢这样,但却无法控制。。。



我知道这不行啊,人重要学习与面对。。。


但我该如何去克服?

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

From a friend of mine - bobo

Thumbs up when u post a comment on my status at facebook.

Ng Choon Mei feel worry, so many things to read...
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    • Kwan Pooi Leng Add oil Mei Mei!!! am sure u can handle tis.. As how brave u used 2 be in d Mary search n d time u said ' how many ten years v can hv in our lifetime' which hv been impressed me so much:) keep it up!hehe...
      20 minutes ago · ·
    • Ng Choon Mei Walao Ah bo!!! HAHA!!! OMG! u still rmb what i say there! xp paiseh laaa~ xp Hehe! Thx for ur encouragement! really appreciate it ^^d
      13 minutes ago · ·


Thx my dear... Really appreciate it~
and u make me think back of the old days... that time we know each other~
Its faith, that bring us together...
Miss u guys, gang of six, miss those days in competition, tough yet memorable...

Sunday, August 29, 2010

太阳出现了!

了解了自己的处境后,我知道自己应该去面对,而不是逃避。

面对,要怎么面对呢?我也不知道,只是告诉自己,别再逃跑了~



今天,不知道为什么,我的心中是晴朗的~


我,开始找回那一种发自内心的笑~ ^^

(要称赞一下自己:有进步噢! ^^)



不知从什么时候开始,自己不再笑得那么真,自己变得好虚伪。

但是今天,我又找回了昔日的天真~ (开心!)



呵呵!



还有陶心对人的感觉,真的很棒!



媚啊,我好喜欢这样子的你!

我好喜欢这样子的自己~ <3

我要做的是自己!^^V

OYE!

Saturday, August 28, 2010

痛。酸

为什么过了那么久,还是会有心痛或是心酸的感觉?

是因为自己没去面对,在逃避的关系吗?







原来,真的不是那么的简单。

没那么简单放下。

如果现在能哭,该是多好的事。

我连那唯一能让自己舒服的,都做不了。。。


无能。。 无奈啊。。