Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Kinship

I'm that kind of people who really needs love and support from family, but, there is something happened recently, and my sister begins to treat me so cool...

Actually I wish I could tell her everything, but because of her reaction last time, I just don't dare to talk about X anymore. I really feel scare to tell her due to the reaction she might give to me.

Actually when I was young, we (me and my sis) do not really communicate, maybe there is too many year gaps between us.

But when I growth up, we start to have more topic to talk to. I really miss that moment, where we always have pillow talk before we sleep. Share what is happening in our life. I really feel how lucky am I, have her in my life.

I still remember that time when she is going to New Zealand. She left and without letting me to see her for the last time. I know maybe she scare we will cry. But, I really hope that I could send her, I really got a lot of things to tell her. And I called her, asking her why leaving so early and didn't let me to see her for the last time before she go to New Zealand. And actually my tears starts to run down that moment.

I really wish that we could go back to that time, the time when u will tell me your stuff and me too. We shares each other feeling, thinking. We support each other...

I know you are quite stress up for your work recently, I understand, I hope I will be able to share with you as well.

Actually you are really important for me, even though sometimes I might neglect you. All I want is hope to get your support, and I hope you will listen to me.

I don't want to go back to the last time where we hardly to say single word to each other... I really feel sad when I see indifferent face that you are showing to me...

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