I suffer from my mental distortion this few days, and I just couldn't walk out from the circle, keep on turning around the circle.
Its really torturing.
I lost. I don't know which direction to go as in I don't know where the problems is...
I can't find the solutions to solve it, to solve the problem I have in my heart.
I know, if I get to change my mind, everything will be ok. But, I couldn't do it? aww.
And she drop the comment in my fb, my tears drop when I see what she wrote.
"cry whenever you wanna to cry, keep quiet when you dun feel like wanna talk, be URSELF.. do watever you want. actually sumtimes when you dun feel like wanna talk, stop by a while, rest a while, may be you can thk more clear after that..... See More being a human is not easy but not that hard as well, it's the way you thk.. how you thk may bring lots of different. posstive... negative.. however, always rmb there is a HER at a corner of the world.. her heart beats and will keep on beating bcuz worry of you, thking of you. YOU are always in my HEART.."
25/11/2009 7.40PM
Thank you! For understand me. U know what I'm suffering and know what I do not dare to do.
Thank you! For the encouragement!
Thank you! For being there with me, even though you are not beside me, but your heart beat I could feel it.
Thank you! For not letting me alone. though I really scared to be alone.
Just realise there are actually couple of things that I forgoten to update in my blog. haha! Guess its not too late yet?
My car side windows have been broke on August, its really a very very unlucky day! And guess what? That day is 14/7 in lunar calender... its so Freaky!
I always park my car at the housing area near to the LRT station. That day I reach there about 8pm, and I feel weird once I go near to the car. Its takes me few seconds only i know what had happened to my car... slow abit... And I quickly call my sister cause I really don't know what should I do at the moment... T_T
side miror at the driver seat T_T
Side miror at the front passenger seat, its crack!
Another things to update is this:
This is the first time I have this Green Tea flavour cake! Intro by Hui Boon! ^^
And this is the one she bought to me. Its really nice!
Before this I felt green Tea made cake, ice cream is quite hard for me to accept... BUT, after I taste this --------I began to LOVE IT! ^^
Those who love Green Tea made products, must try it!!
Its available at RT cake house located at SS17, Shop Lots near to Asia Cafe. (:
Really feel happy for you, feeling glad that you get to find some one to accompany you in your life.
At least there is some one there who can pampered you and love you that I couldn't give it to you.
You are really my best best best...... friend. And I really wish that you can get a lot a lot of happiness when u are being in another stage of life~ Haha!
Well. Suddenly i feel like crying just now.
The tears is not for any sadness but happiness that I felt to you.
Is like, finally you took your first step that you think you hardly to do it since last time.
This is the growth for your mental.
Its good to let you let go the principle you always grab tightly in the past. It is good for you not being "degil" anymore.
I guess you learned and see things in different angle this time, which I might not able to do it for this moment? I guess larr.
No matter how, yes, try it! Left no regret in your life.
Things might end up in sadness but also happiness.
However, all that memories are valuable.
And do remember, here is someone loving you too! (Don't think too much, its love for friends la! xp)
Yesterday is the day of me and Hb. Both of us went to Sunway Pyramid and Desa Park City for our second round of the day. ^^
Its has been a long time we didn't lepak at Sunway after our high school~ And the feeling is great, right? hehe!
We keep going to those shop like Nichii, Forever21, Kitchen, TopShop... To update our fashion sense?~ Haha. And she targeted quite some of the clothes from those shops~ And keep saying, I need to be rich, haha!
Yesterday, finally I have claimed my 3 years birthday present from her. Its a pair of shoes and I really like it so muchiieee! Thx ya girl! ^^
This is the most expensive birthday present I have receive ever! Cost RM120++. But its worth lo, for your bestie, 3 years present some more. Hehe. But I really like it lar! I promise I will take good care of it k? ^^
After Sunway, we proceed to Desa park City around 6+pm.
Well. Yes, Traffic Jam.... =.= Really test my driving skill. However, we still manage to reach that place.
It is really a nice place with free parking (Haha!), Nice view and good security park (unlike the Kelana Jaya one, this is wat HB keep on repeating~) and The Hill! I remember the road, and manage to drive on to the Hill... But we just manage to stay for a short time, don't ask why, haha, quite pity also... xD
Nice place... Next time must have dinner there... With the love one... (Haha! Stop Dreaming! Wake up! xp)Yet, we really have great time for the day~ 万岁!^^
Haha, it seems to be another long time I didn't update my blog. Haha!
What happens for this few days?? Umm. Actually I not really remember it due to my poor memory. >.<
But, yesterday, I really have a good time with my best best friend, boon~ Haha.
Guess what? Our class cancel, its pretty normal for class cancel for the first week of college in SSSH.
To make use of this good chance, we went to Sg. Wang and SHOP! Its has been a really long time that both of us to go shopping like yesterday! Haha, even though we are really dizzy (shop until dizzy), and my leg is pain, but still a word "satisfy!" hehe! ^^ (Girls like shopping okayy! xD)
After that, in the night time, we went for dinner at Kota Damansara with my sister.
And then after that we went for movie "sorority" at 11.55pm! I really feel sleepy at that time, but the movie awake me in the end! *SCARY* xp
That's all for yesterday~ Really Happy for having u guys~ And the new clothes!! haha!
I am the one who trying to be happy for every day, hoping that I can face the challenges toughly and with positive mind. I believe that there will always be sunshine after heavy rain. stayHAPPY! ^^