Presently, My heart is not feeling well.

I'm not having any heart disease, is just that, I can't feel the true happiness anymore.

My receptor is gone? No.

Happiness in the life is not what you can obtain from MATERIAL but LOVE.

I can't feel the love recently, I know there is somethings goes very wrong.. But, WHAT IS THE SOLUTION?

When its late in nights, or when I am alone, the atmosphere is just so...... UNUSUAL? SAD? DEPRESSED?

I can't find a place that is I can hide myself at, even the only place, have polluted with PROBLEMS, ANGER, UNHAPPINESS, FRUSTRATION.

Where is the calmness? Peacefulness?

They just don't know what am I thinking.

Often, a smiley face, doesn't means that I really happy.

It has always been circulating inside my mind - Where is the LOVE?

是时候了

最近，好像失去了一样东西，叫做快乐。

生活中，是有很多事情值得我去快乐，但我却失去了那种真正快乐的表情，感觉，心情。

为什么？是因为我在执着什么吗？

认识我的人，你们都应该了解我。

我也不知道我在想些什么。

最近实在是发生太多事情了。

从家里，到工作。。。还好朋友那里都没什么，要不然，我还撑得住么？

我很试着坚强的面对，告诉自己我可以。

提醒着自己，这些很快就会过去，过后所见的会是光明。

但是，暗地里还是会想要哭泣。

这些都过去了吧？

为什么，我好像还是放不开？

我的快乐呢？

我的心，还是沉重的吗？

最近也不知道为什么，又想起他了。

昨天在MidValley, 突然看见一个，长得跟他蛮像的人~

真的，心脏停止，然后再快速跳动。

应该是虚惊一场吧！

近视的我，也不敢肯定我眼前所见。

也不想跟他确认，就算是，又能怎样？

接下来的，只希望自己能够好好享受接下来的日子。

也希望家人能够开开心心的。。。

Update tomorrow

Umm, there is a lot of things to update, not today but tomorrow.

HAHA! WAIT.............................

*bLeK! :p

FRESHIEZz*

今天睡醒，心情突然好好噢~ 感觉很fresh!

作了个梦, 但却记不起来是个什么梦...

但, 就觉得很好.

莹儿昨天跟我说的那一番话, 有用哦!

你说,现在别想那么多, 最重要是病好了再说.

对阿! 我尽然忘了我处理事情的原则 -- 一步一步来.

我忘了多久啊?

但, 莹儿的那一番话提醒了我! 谢谢你哦!

现在病好多了, 退烧了, 也没伤风了, 只是喉咙还有点痛.

希望现在的自己真的什么都能放下, 好好的面对生活, 别沉沦在过去了.

我想好好的念书, 享受念书的感觉~ (:

The one who really understand me A LOT

she is KHOR HUI BOON.

I suffer from my mental distortion this few days, and I just couldn't walk out from the circle, keep on turning around the circle.

Its really torturing.

I lost. I don't know which direction to go as in I don't know where the problems is...

I can't find the solutions to solve it, to solve the problem I have in my heart.

I know, if I get to change my mind, everything will be ok. But, I couldn't do it? aww.

And she drop the comment in my fb, my tears drop when I see what she wrote.

"cry whenever you wanna to cry,
keep quiet when you dun feel like wanna talk,
be URSELF..
do watever you want.
actually sumtimes when you dun feel like wanna talk, stop by a while, rest a while, may be you can thk more clear after that..... See More
being a human is not easy but not that hard as well,
it's the way you thk..
how you thk may bring lots of different.
posstive... negative..
however, always rmb there is a HER at a corner of the world..
her heart beats and will keep on beating bcuz worry of you, thking of you.
YOU are always in my HEART.."

25/11/2009 7.40PM

Thank you! For understand me. U know what I'm suffering and know what I do not dare to do.

Thank you! For the encouragement!

Thank you! For being there with me, even though you are not beside me, but your heart beat I could feel it.

Thank you! For not letting me alone. though I really scared to be alone.

Thank you! For being there when I need some one.

Thank you! For everything.

Thank you! Khor Hui Boon!